Rather, 3 months post residency… or is it 3 months post honeymoon?
To sum it up, I have a 1 year contract of 40 hours/week duty + 3-month renewable contract of at least 24hrs/week + occasional reliever pediatric OPD clinic duty. That, my friend, is the honeymoon phase. It’s when you have all the hopes and energy to push your body and your dopamine levels to the highest levels hoping to achieve orgasm and a conquered release… only… to slowly, tiredly, sweat and all, you collapse… still unable to reach that point of ecstasy.
Who am I to deceive? (Errr, sinong niloko mo?)
I’m still UNDECIDED whether to go with this general pediatric practice or immerse myself again into specialized training for another 2 more years. That means being chained again to pre-duty-from-papers-audits-mockery, in addition to saving the peoples lives of course.
Please universe, answer my plea (I mean, my other plea aside from being with my partner-for-life, if ever he exists).
It’s awesome and just a bit scary. It’s something I can really do for the rest of my life. This is something I know I am comfortable thinking of during my quiet time. And that’s why I get scared sometimes. Will there be SOMEBODY that would ever come again to disturb my present normalcy? Will there be somebody who will shake my world again? Can there be somebody please that would complement this world that I have? I mean my work, my service, my child, my personality, my future?
It’s only in my wildest dreams that I imagine living with my BFF since preschool. But we will be now. I sometimes wonder if there is something else I could have done before we ended up this way but this thought is overcome with my belief that we are where we are meant to be right now. And it’s the time I step in.
I welcome her to my “dorm” where all board reviewers pass (crossing my fingers). I welcome her to my “dorm” where relationships bloom, (unfortunately, end up in doom, I’m sorry). I welcome here to my “dorm” of solace, of good sleep. I welcome her to freedom from watchful eyes.